Tomorrow I will really be mid 40s, and you know what? I realize I’m good with that. It’s been overall a really good year, and a good decade of life thus far. Oh, there are things I would still change in my life, those ‘if I knew then, what I know now’ moments, but I …
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Eight years gone
My dearest Squish; Eight fucking years. Hell, baby, I thought I wasn’t going to get to 8 hours, 8 days, 8 weeks without you. I know you come around sometimes. Thanks. It does keep me going at times, when I need that little reminder that it wasn’t all in my head, and what we had …
Fergus
My heart aches this morning for a friend who’s life ended in a case of car versus pedestrian. I had seen the article in the paper of the unnamed victim, a brief ‘how sad’ moment before turning to the next story. Fergus has – had – been a constant in my life for over twenty …
Denouement
They lie you know, when they say time heals all. Time can make it a bit easier, but some wounds are always like an abscess of the soul that can never be properly drained and cleaned and healed. There are days where things are a blur I don’t bother to focus on. But the sounds …
Letting Go
Picture two people on a cliff, one clinging to the other off the edge. Now you say to me “just let it go” I wonder if I am the one hanging, Or the one holding? But I’ve just let go so we will see What will be the impact? Have I saved or sacrificed …
Midnight Butterfly
Perhaps a shadow of my former imagination Flickering, fluttering in the corner of my (heart?) eye Happiness is like the butterfly Sinking to the bottom of the kill jar Spread, sprayed, and pinned to velvet Mounted for the world to see for ages Or Is reality like the butterfly Floating, flying through winds across the …
Had You Let Me Love You
Had you let me love you I would’ve been home by now, Cooking you something light and quick Laughing on something we had seen in passing Oyster sauce, my bad chopstick technique Crumb at your lip, tongue tip Sweet corn, plum sauce, oyster dip What might have we seen, Walking dogs talking Laughter on trails, …
Dean
Soft twilight of 24/7 Coffee scented spot Waiting forever in two minutes he Walks in smiling Brief, familiar hug Kind eyes, serious face, quick smile, smooth skin, taut muscle Summary of a glance. Words lost in the din around us Laughter and loud conversation Knives on plates, glass to floor, wine to cup Scents, incensed, …
A Joy Like Yours
he says JOY is the core state he wants in life a conscious intention since he was 19, with JOY being the conviction that all will be well. To me JOY is a state of ecstasy. Contentment is the core I struggle for, and JOY the reward. This quest for someone, who’s demons play well …
The Nature of God, and the Note to Self
It was the type of blasphemous discourse that can only happen when friends have a proper drunk-on, and started with the question, “do you believe in God or some higher power?” Absolutely. “Why? With all the crappy things that have happened to you, how can you believe in a higher power?” Simple. If there isn’t …
Psychoterrierpy 